Rainy day Friday

You seeing a trend here?

As I'm sitting on this train with one more stop remaining.
I just wanted to get this question out there..

Why are we so insecure with ourselves? Why can't we see all of the great things in ourselves but we can see it in other people?
Is it easier to accept theirs than our own?

It's a time for change.. Because just doing that can set us back.. We are our own worst enemies sometimes and we cause ourselves to stand still.

Time to move! Time to achieve!

Happy Friday (woop!)

Rainy day Thursday

Well, hello person I cannot see in cyberspace!

It's been a while.. I know. Give me some credit, at least it hasn't been a month!
Anyway.. The new year isn't as bad as it began.. I'm starting to piece together things, and supporting and most importantly improving myself in small ways.
This year is a year of improvement for me because I really need to start moving and making  a mark.

And that leaves my question out to you-- what do you already do that people remember you by? I put on twitter this morning that if you do something and do it well you will definitely be remembered.
For me.. What i've been told many times is I encourage. I don't know how I do it, but I do it! Lol

One desire of mine is to be one of those people that are remembered for always being there and being supportive through the tough times, being that person that never left regardless of what's happened. I would like to be remembered as a person that caused them not to give up.
But there are things about myself I also need to change to be able to be that kind of person.
I want to make a change..

This life.. It's not all about what we want.. It's about others and how we can help them and make an impact in other people's lives..

Have it in mind that you are someone's helper... And just a word can change their life...

x

Nostalgia

Was looking through my writings and found this..



You really don't need to know..

These feelings I've been feeling...

You really don't need to know

How hard I've been trying at healing

Everyday it's a new cut, and you don't even realise

You go about your day, oblivious to what's happening to me

Internally.

The cuts never heal-- blood seeping out of the cracks

But who cares?

You're the straw that broke the camel's back.

I can't take it... you rubbing her all in my face.

Yet you are the one

That I am willing to chase.

All of the hurt, all of the emotions

Were all in vain.

But really, for your gain.

Internally I'm being cut piece by piece.

But what can I do?

I'm here for you no matter what.

Because I love you.

All wrapped up..

All wrapped up in my duvet.. I can't thank God enough for what he has done in my life..
As much as I have been stubborn and hard of hearing I do believe God has my back...

There's always a million and one things flying in my head.. But most of it.. 98 percent is irrelevant..

I'm just thankful.. And anxious to what else God has in store..

Second Sunday of the year...

Seeing as I've missed the first Sunday to blog.. Which was an amazing day..
This Sunday not so amazing....

Thoughts decided to terrorize my mind for the past week and mess with my spirit.. My mood.. My week.
There were days that were a little better off than others.. I dunno if I'm just being extremely critical of myself or I'm just making more mistakes...
Only God knows... But I'm slowly getting out of this mental quick sand..
*sigh* I guess it's because i'm really expecting to do and achieve a lot this year... And I don't want to let myself down...
Because time certainly flies and I don't want December to come and have done nothing..

And on top of that.. My birthday is in 6 months too.. Not getting any younger out 'ere!

Change is most definitely evident..

On the plus side... I'm still here and God loves me :)

Happy Sunday x

New year #writermoment

Oh Lord take me away from the hurt and pain..
Oh Lord alleviate the excessive strain..

My body..
My mind..

Shouldn't I be in line?

What am I supposed to do.. The internal struggle slowly manifesting itself outward..
The strength to stay afloat is slowly fading away...
What do I gain?

More pain
More unhealed wounds?

Let the wind chill slowly numb me..

5 days until the new year

Sitting at this train station waiting for this delayed train.. I'm just thinking about all that I could have done differently or not at all this year.. Not necessarily regret, but just.. To improve.

Already made a mental note of what I need to work on.. And I just pray God to help me..

I really need his help..