Uncensored

This is the time and I can feel it..

But why am I being my own worst enemy and stopping it?

I'm thinking about what lies ahead, yet the first step I have yet to make.

It's true, it's only God that I have... and no one else.

So I might as well take this risk and do what I can do..

Or else.. I will be stuck..

Stuck in the space time continuum of debt, sorrow, discontent...

But once I break out on my own..

There's no more boundaries.

I think for myself.. I do it for myself...

There's no one to fall back on.. but God.

God is the only one I have..

He's the one that never leaves.. nor forsakes.

If I break

He will still be there.

I don't want to be stuck here anymore.

Stolen happiness and joy.

No more.

Minor progression...

Well...my mind is a little more at ease now concerning some things, so I'm quite thankful for that!
It's just when you know... you just unnecessarily worry about things that actually are beyond your control, or you worry for the sake of worrying, (I know.. how pointless)

But... things are looking up I think.. kind of, I believe!

Ugh... It'll be time to go back to work soon and the tedious schedule of a 5 day working week.

Ah well... time flies, eh?

It's August!

Where is the time flying?

Next thing I know, I'll blink and we're in 2013. Like, really?
But so many things are going on in my mind.. and so many plans are being created. So many changes are ready to happen...

I have a lot to do.

I just...

want to help as many people as I can..
Is that so hard?

Total Thought spam...

Well... Here I am again... thought spamming my mind away.. there's so much.. but I'm going to try and limit it... It's just like you want to push yourself away from people for a while, not in a bad way.. but when you're around people too much it can get a bit agitating and irritating and you start to make mistakes and say things that you're not meant to say, and then by the time you've said it, it's too late and then you feel like a fool. How about when you've witnessed someone saying something about you, and it's like... 'Well what's the point of even talking, if people are going to say poo about you?' It's like.. I've gotten to a point where I'm like 'Oh my god.. who can I even trust?' It's scary... anything that is said can be used against you, EVEN if it's something good. Why is it when you do good, no one remembers... and the one mistake you made it's remembered for eternity. (Yes, eternity.. that's what it seems like sometimes) *sigh* It's like I'm beginning to seclude myself.. I don't want to speak to anyone because of fear of stuff being used against me... And.... I haven't had that heavy hearted feeling for a while.. till just recently.. but I know why, and I do not want it. It's a crap feeling. It sucks. Especially for a pointless reason. I'm not even making sense anymore....

Like, dude!

It's June.

And once again, I have not been updating my blog like I should! So much has been going on.. and with the net being down at my house AGAIN, didn't really help much.

But it's 22 days until my birthday.. and OMG!

Just felt like sharing that..

The ability to feel...

..can be such a drag sometimes!

I tend to feel unnecessary feelings, or feelings that are not that relevant to what's going on right now!!

I know the right time will come along and everything, but just.. Aghhh let the feelings suffice and let me just focus on what I need to do!

That's my rant over.