I never knew..

Being a creative is so special...

It's at these times my creative mind wakes up..
Just writing random blurbs here and there.. throughout the week I hope to have completed some stuff...

But who would of known that I would be needed so much amongst so many people...

You just offer a helping hand here... and a shoulder to lean on there.. and so many people yearn for your comfort and support.

Sometimes you even have to ask yourself  'Am I even that important?'

The answer is YES.

Everyone has a part to play in so many lives of so many people..

We are all needed to complete a mission...

#life

Letter to my father..

I'm starting to feel distant from you...

I know I don't communicate as much OUT LOUD... but within my heart, I always speak to you.. and I know that you hear me...

Even the most littlest things that you do, I notice them and give you praise because of it. It's not on purpose.. it's just there have been other things that have clouded my mind.. and I know I shouldn't really allow anything like that to deviate my mind from you... but it's just I felt as if I've done wrong by you, so I feel ashamed...

But I know your word says you never leave nor forsake.. so it's not you that's distant.. it's me..

I just want to be closer to you than ever before... I want to be used by you.. I want you to be glorified because of me..

I just want to fulfil what I need to do..

Is that so much to ask?

Draw me closer.. cleanse me clean..


Forgive me..

Diana

Hurt

I never thought it could ever happen..

This.

This feeling would come from you..

I sit down and cast my mind back to what we did together...

It takes two..

But we are both to blame.. but one was more in it than the other..

To make you feel better... I'm the hypocrite that just didn't want to quit...


So because of it.. I need to mend..

"It just happened.."

You know when you watch television shows, or even when you're listening to a friend telling you about something that they never thought would happen, and then all they can say is "It just happened..."

Can something really 'just happen'? You must be aware that something is happening ,and if so.. why not stop it?
OR could it be because you're so caught up in the moment that you don't realise until after?

I just wanted to get my head around it.

Uncensored

This is the time and I can feel it..

But why am I being my own worst enemy and stopping it?

I'm thinking about what lies ahead, yet the first step I have yet to make.

It's true, it's only God that I have... and no one else.

So I might as well take this risk and do what I can do..

Or else.. I will be stuck..

Stuck in the space time continuum of debt, sorrow, discontent...

But once I break out on my own..

There's no more boundaries.

I think for myself.. I do it for myself...

There's no one to fall back on.. but God.

God is the only one I have..

He's the one that never leaves.. nor forsakes.

If I break

He will still be there.

I don't want to be stuck here anymore.

Stolen happiness and joy.

No more.

Minor progression...

Well...my mind is a little more at ease now concerning some things, so I'm quite thankful for that!
It's just when you know... you just unnecessarily worry about things that actually are beyond your control, or you worry for the sake of worrying, (I know.. how pointless)

But... things are looking up I think.. kind of, I believe!

Ugh... It'll be time to go back to work soon and the tedious schedule of a 5 day working week.

Ah well... time flies, eh?

It's August!

Where is the time flying?

Next thing I know, I'll blink and we're in 2013. Like, really?
But so many things are going on in my mind.. and so many plans are being created. So many changes are ready to happen...

I have a lot to do.