Don't think about it too much..

Life is too funny..

Just sitting in bed right now... Listening to my magic fm..and kind of just reflecting and wondering what the future holds.

Obviously it's never good to think about anything too much... But sometimes you really just have to sit down and marvel about your own life and what you've personally had to endure and encounter by yourself..

Hmph.. It's all amazing.. I feel I should stop there before I start to not make sense due to tiredness..

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I bid you goodnight

It's been one of those days that cause you to reflect so deeply...
Just about everything in life...

*sigh* Only God will understand...

But I got encouraged... Check out the pic!
God is using me :)

Quick one

Got my phone back baby! Looking and feeling like new!

On my way to work and just wanted to share this picture...
Believe!

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A new week begins..

Got my hurr did... feeling good...

Just have to look a little better.. and I'm good!

Anyway...

I'm just excited because I get my phone back... after an excruciating week.. of struggling to use a loan phone.. I finally get my phoneeee!

I believe that's the only highlight of my week besides Fridays.

Need to up my pace with the writing.. but holiday time is soon approaching.. so i will definitely get on that.

So yay!

New week
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Friday, Friday

Ohhh Finally...

I'm not as excited because I can't express my excitement on Facebook because of lack of phone!

So I went back to the repair shop.. my phone screen is all done and my phone is looking and feeling so fresh!
....and I couldn't take it because I don't have the monies!!

So I have to excruciatingly wait until Monday.. *cries*

But anyway, the loan phone is a complete nightmare.. the charger slot broke, which is why it wasn't charging.. but it wasn't charging that much in the first place so it might have already been broken.. But now it looks like I broke it.. but the guy seemed a little passive, and replied 'Please don't break it any further..' But I didn't break it?

So I was given a battery charger.. which is also a little useless.. because I charged the battery for a good 2-3 hours yesterday and it had only charged 15%!

But let me stop complaining.. the guy has been really nice and helpful to even bother with anything.. so I really appreciate him for that.
The battery is currently on charge.. and I'm hoping 8 hours will suffice.. and the battery will be full.

I've realised I really need to sort my head out.. my head is full of junk and unnecessary imaginary things that aren't even.. relevant!
Lord... I have issues.

But don't we all..

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But thankful I've made it through another week..

Oh, the small things..

So... I'm on this downward spiral of internal meltdown because it seems as if nothing is going right for me.. but everything is ok for me?
It may not make sense to you.. but you're not in my shoes.. so... *boop* Sorry if it makes no sense..

Well anyway, the loan phone I got until I get my Sony back has now given up on life.. and has refused to accept any cable of charging ability.

So... back at square one: No phone.

I'm going back to the place today to see if anything can be done... or even (not possible though) I could get my phone back and I'll pay on Monday-- the guy told me that it would take 2 days for it to get fixed and I gave it in on Monday.. and it's Thursday..

But money talks.. so I have to wait until money drops on Monday.

Getting my hair done on Saturday.. I guess that'll be a pick me up.. sorta.

Still blogging from work.. Been in a very contemplative mood.. probably being a bit selfish too.. I've been in my own mind working out solutions to problems.

But funnily enough this morning when I was on my way to work.. I was so down it was unbelievable; and this old lady sits next to me on the train and we just strike up a conversation.. and when I'm about to get off.. she gives me two Maoam Sweets and goes 'Suck on those love, it'll get you through the day-- they're amazing'

lol. Made me giggle a bit.. and it did lift up my spirits a little

Didn't eat the sweets though.

lol..
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There's always light at the end of the tunnel...

Hurrah!

So... I had a good scrummage around my area to find a price on fixing my phone screen...

*drum roll*

£160

Now. I was actually expecting it to be that price anyway, as long as it wasn't over or above £200 (but even that I wouldn't have paid anyway..) Even the  guy told me that he had fixed a screen like mine and it was £150.. I'm really praying that he will be really nice and fix the back of my phone as well.. because it's cracked... lol. But oh well, the priority is the screen.. so as long as that gets fixed.

So now my phone is in the capable hands of the gentleman who is going to fix it.. and he was nice enough to give me a loan phone-- an HTC... which is android, so it's not alien to me.

I'm collecting my phone on Monday evening... So I have a week without my beloved Sony Xperia... that phone I have had no issues with it.. if the screen didn't crack I'd be merrily along my way.

But anyway... if you've been reading my past blogs... there was a stage where I was 'picking scabs'
Yeah well... one scab has formed and healed, and now another small wound has appeared, scab slowly forming again.

I don't know why I keep hurting myself like this... and it's becoming a cycle. I really don't know... I guess when you care about people so much you'd do anything to make them happy, or at least feel ok, right?

But anyway.

On a brighter note.. I have a lot of stuff in store for myself this next year coming... there's one big thing I want to achieve and I will try my hardest to do it. By all means.

Anywho... I'm at work blogging again..

So till next time!
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After a little joy, there's pain

So.. as I found the beauty of blogging on the go..

I crack my phone screen, and now I can't unlock my phone, make phone calls, answer phone calls.. all I can do is stare at it ringing, or receiving texts.. etc.

Lovely. And on top of that the phone isn't insured. Yay!

So I have no means of contact.. I don't have internet at home.. I was using my phone as a hotspot! *cries*

So I'm blogging at work right now.. seeing as I won't be able to meet the net when I go home!!

I'll be running around like a headless chicken in the next 20 or so minutes trying to find the best place to fix my screen... because besides the screen the phone is fully functional.. it vibrates.. it makes noises.. and thankfully my alarm still can go off.. I just can't stop it. x_x


Oh  the Joys of a Monday.

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Crisp Sunday

I now have found the beauty of blogging on the go... So now typing from my Sony Xperia Z on this train to church...

I'm in a really contemplative state in regards to my life and the impact I have on the people around me. Because my spiritual father has said once a time along the lines of 'You create your environment, if you don't have an impact, it'll.definitely have an impact on you'
Meaning! If you haven't made a positive impact on the people around you... They surely will--which is why you should have positive, uplifting people around you.. That can lift you up when you are down!
Being your brothers keeper..
When they are weak, you lift them up and vice versa.

So what kind of person am I in this equation? What kind of person are you in your position?

Life... You're always learning, eh?

Happy Sunday
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Thought Transition

Had a deep thought so hard I woke up with a headache this morning.

No lie.

But.. I know all of us wonder what we're meant to be doing. As in, our purpose. No one out there just believes that they are alive to just work, or smoke, or drink or have sex? If you believe that is what life is all about.. you are truly missing out on the gift of life.

Do you know why it's called a gift? A gift is something someone gives to someone right? Well it was given to you.. not everyone made it into this world alive. Even if they did, there are even some people you know that aren't even alive today. Life is precious.

But let me not go off on a serious tangent, I was just thinking about what I need to do.. what I find fulfilling.. What plan God has for me.. and what I am doing to make it come a reality.

You know, God doesn't lie. He doesn't leave us.. we leave him. God is not a person to impose himself on you.. he is gentle. That's why we can make our own decisions. Unless you invite God into your life, your heart, your situation-- he hasn't left you, he's overseeing you and watching you.

God knows your heart-- you may not be doing things that are right, but regardless he loves you.

Yeah.
So. Purpose. Don't you ever just sit down and wonder 'What am I meant to be doing?' Don't you ever get that feeling that there is MORE you should be doing with yourself? Or there's something nudging at you inside where you feel there's something else you should be doing.. rather than just wasting time?

If you feel any of those things... run with them. Pray. Chase that feeling, investigate it.. because it's more than likely linked to where you're meant to be heading.

We all want to be dream chasers... and we think it's impossible. It becomes possible when you get up and start moving.

Til next time... Purpose must be fulfilled. We are here to make a difference.. and leave a legacy.

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Time for a revival..

Well, as you guys can tell...

I've slowly but surely gone back to what I used to do.. and NOT UPDATE!!

There's a lot of things I want to mention, like why do the ones closest to you hurt you the most? Why is it so hard to change out of old ways? Why is it when you do change, people can't seem to get accustomed to it?

Yeah, pretty much just a string of unanswerable 'why' questions. But that's the thing about life.. it's not knowing about everything.. it's about experiencing life and learning...
But you know sometimes when things aren't going the way you want it to.. you want to know what's going to happen just so you have that wee bit of comfort because you know everything isn't going to get burnt in the fire...

On a different note... IT'S GONNA SNOW!
As much as I'm not prepared or wanting to experience bitter, toe numbing cold.. snow is always pretty.

Hehe.

Till next time..
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