Aftermath of Christmas and bits

So.. Christmas is over.. the day anyway.. the celebrations will continue all the way until new years.

I had someone ask me... 'Do you miss your mother?' and I replied.. 'Everyday' of course I miss her... I always miss her.. I still remember her smile, her laugh, her yelps of excitement when she used to sit and watch tennis and lift up her leg in excitement.

This season has truly been a reflective one for me.. despite the madness around me, and the people around me.. in my own quiet time I have so much time to think and reflect about what is going on with me.. what I need to do.. what I need to achieve.. what I need to focus on.
The end of the year is really just a time to plan on what I need to DO. And stop being so got dang lazy... and just do what God wants me to do.
I've been slacking a lot for the past couple of months.. I know it within myself--- you know when you know you're doing something wrong.. or something that you're not meant to be doing--you can just FEEL it deep within your spirit.. your whole being-- yeah.. THAT!

It's not a sad time... not at all.. it's just a time of nostalgia, a time of just remembering the good and bad.. and making it a better year for myself... the fact that God has allowed my life to last up until now is more than a blessing--but it's my decision to make it even more than it is now.

Have to work!!

Mending

This time of the year is always a little hard for me.. seeing as I lost my mother the month before, 3 years ago.

I try not to think about it, but it's really hard! I don't say anything, but I always cast my mind back to that time, and I can remember it like it happened yesterday.

I am so SO thankful that I know the Lord.. otherwise this strength that I know is not of me, I wouldn't be able to cope. I literally have NO ONE. I have God, that's it.

Obviously, there are people that are close to me and I count them as family, but when you look into it.. really I have no one. It sounds sad.. but I guess it's an opportunity for God to bring the right people around me.

My perspective of why things have happened the way they have has changed... I always turn it to a positive because in life, everything does indeed happen for a reason, and that reason will always turn into some form of growth or something to learn from.

My mother's gone.. yes, but what she's taught me and how she's brought me up hasn't left me. I know I must honour my mother.. therefore I need to keep myself in check-- yes I will make mistakes... I will make stupid choices and decisions, but at the end of it all, as long as I still have God and he's still in my life.. I know I'll be alright.

I'm so done with 2012... 2013 there is truly a lot that I need to do and get done and I have to accomplish it. You know.. the bestest most beautifulest (Yes.. I said bestest and beautifulest) enemy is ourselves.
We can delay ourselves.. make so many excuses under the sun...

That needs to stop.
I'm mending from a lot right now.. a stupid choice I made.. and so much other madness.

But I know everything with settle.

8 days until Christmas!!

Christmas is in a week and one day!

How week did that come? And it's not even just Christmas that is the exciting thing.. it's the fact that, a week after that it's the new year! It's like Christmas is the signifier for the new year.

But... there is the question we always ask.. 'Will it snow for Christmas'? The way it's been COLD... and not just any cold, that finger numbing, toe biting, wanna stay in your bed all day type of cold! That's the kind of cold I'm talking about! If it wanted to snow, it could. Seriously.

But I'm just thankful that I've lasted this entire year, and no stupidity has happened. There's been a couple of hiccups.. but none that can be rectified.

I'm just glad...

Thank you Lord :)

And so the new year is approaching...

So much has happened this year... and there's still more that I need to do..

Not saying that I'm disappointed... but I know that there's so much I can do! Even better, I have this sheet where I can plan what I want to do each month next year... pretty much make goals and stick to them!

I've always done that.. but never met them. So I think writing them down and praying about them may make it more concrete.

But nonetheless, I know I've slacked a lot in some areas that need to be rejuvenated as the new year comes. There are things I need to achieve and I WILL!!


Just... God o! Help my brain, I think too much about unnecessary stuff...
That's gonna be one of my new years resolutions...

x

The bitter, bitter cold of December

As I was making my way to work this morning... wearing my pumps with no protection (i.e SOCKS) I froze to death as I stood at my local train station.
As I board the train now, I'm seeing flurries of SNOW!!
The first thought in my mind was 'Oh Lord, how am I gonna get home'

lol.

And then the flurries ceased.

The cold literally bit off at least 3 toes. I was numb!

But the weather is really dropping, I mean even tonight it's supposed to be -4 degrees.

Great, just great.

But experiencing this cold as I commute, and then I have a home to go to.. I am grateful. There are some people who do not have anywhere to go, let alone anywhere to lay their head.. but you and I.. we complain of things (just how I've just ranted about the cold) but we still have shoes and clothes to wear, let alone a place of rest.

The end of the year is always a sign of reflection.. and it's always good to see what we've accomplished and what goals we need to achieve for the forthcoming year..

x

Love knows no boundaries

Right?

When you love someone, you love them unconditionally. Nowadays the word 'love' (which I know has been said so many times, it might as well be a cliche now..)  has been overused. We just say it.. and not actually mean what we are saying.

It's good to let people know that you love them, because life is too short, you shouldn't wait until something happens to the one you love before you decide to tell them..

But really all I'm trying to say here is that love is a powerful emotion... and even in the most hardest, darkest, of times it shouldn't compromise your love.. because if it does it isn't true...

It should stand no matter what the circumstances maybe..

Just more thoughts...