A writer's point of view..

So bought some stationary... I love it. I get so excited when I get new notebooks and pens and such..

Yeah... I made today my 'writing day' but didn't write that much to be honest. Maybe I need to make it a writing week..

Anyway.

Again... have been thinking..
I was talking to one of my dear brothers on BBM and I was in such a mood of release, I made it known to him about how I thank God for my job because it was one of the things my mother knew before she died.

And for me, or TO me.. I think it made her go in peace at least knowing that I wasn't going to struggle. Because I know my mom and I know that's the last thing she wanted for her children is to struggle.

I dunno... but she died the same day when I got the news of my new job. So... at least she heard some good news.

I miss her. But I know she's resting.

And it really makes you think like, when you lose someone is that when you start to appreciate them? It should start from now--but that's human nature I guess?

But... I always appreciated her, no matter what. Even though I never mentioned it all the time, I did. And I know she knows.

Just some thoughts...

Gonna probably write a bit more actually.

Night night

God bless x

Just a release

Had a busy couple of days, and getting home really late.. that's why I haven't blogged.

But just been reflecting on my life.

Like, I really believe we all need a time where we can just sit down and reflect on what we've done so far, and what we aim to do, and if what we're doing is having an effect onother people.

I was just thinking about myself and what I've done so far.. if I'm impacted or changed someone's life in anyway.. if my motives are correct, and I'm not just thinking about myself, but I'm thinking of other people..

Just loads of stuff.

Because in life, it's always good to be a selfless person, because when you're selfish, in my opinion it's an ugly trait to have, and I think it makes you ugly.. whatever you are inside shows outwardly.

But anyway.. I need to sleep.

God bless x

Get the HAIL outta here!

My goodness gracious-- didn't get the chance to blog yesterday because I got home ultra late from church...

But the storms yesterday were complete and utter madness. Even WITH an umbrella I still got drenched!

I reckon it's the rain built up over all of these months.. because it hasn't rained for I think 2 months? It hasn't rained properly anyway.

The rain quickly changed to pelting hail, and it was madness!
I was just surprised.. I like rain, but not getting caught in it.

Anyway... that was yesterday, and it's now today.

May not get to blog later... so until tomorrow.

God bless
x

So.. this is a must have..

So.. went into Superdrug today and got me one of these!

Was so excited.. must have been the best card I've ever gotten, and it doubles as a mirror.

It's just really cool.

I wonder who thinks up the ideas for these kinds of things?

Anyway, just thought I'd share that with you guys.

Until next time.

God bless x

Fatigue

I haven't blogged since Sunday?

Wow.

Let me just throw this out there, but when you're tired, do you notice that you start to notice intricate things? Like things you wouldn't usually pick up on if you had energy?

Like if you sit down quietly and listen to people talking.. you'd start to pick on stuff.. I can't describe it.

I think I just need to sleep.

Friday is approaching and more thought provoking blogs too...

#random

God bless xx

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Being human...

We are subject to so many things.

I think the biggest thing we have to face is our emotions.

How can they be so powerful that they can actually take over you? If you get what I mean? Especially with emotions such as love and anger? How can a FEELING make you do things and afterwards, you either don't remember, or you feel really stupid after you've done them?

Emotions are natural as a human being.. and I just find it fascinating.

Yeah.

I'm tired...

Half term is approaching and I'm so happy, there's so much to be done!

One thing I'd like to say; Love yourself. Because as you love yourself, you also love God because he created you.. and God is love :)

God bless x

You just never know..

So.. awake early on this beautiful Saturday morning and I'm just thinking about how you just never know what people think of you until they say it.

And yesterday I was told I was beautiful, and a person I would have NEVER expected to tell me that, told me. I was actually astounded for a couple of seconds, and I just thought 'Wow'.

I'm still trying to get myself to take compliments because I'm so not used to it... and I don't want to take them on board and become big headed--I just go 'Thank you' and put it down.

But what I was thinking is, there's people out there who know you or don't know you (Maybe people that see you or never talk to you) But they have a thought of you. Whether it's good or bad, you don't know, but they have a thought and you will never know until they tell you.

Because you're just going around doing your thing unaware of what people have in their minds-- and it's funny because when people tell you, it's so unexpected as well!
But I guess it's a encouragement booster, to let you know that there are people who are thinking good of you, but just don't say it all the time. And it's actually better that way-- it has more meaning.

The same with God.. he has a thought about all of us, and it's always a good thought because he created us to make a difference.

I'm still surprised now.

It's funny!

Beautiful day.. enjoy the sun!

God bless x

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God bless x

Two is better than one.

Ecclesiastes 4:10

'For if they fall, one will lift up his companion'

This scripture has so many connotations. That's how awesome the word of God is.

It could mean, when someone falls down, there is someone there to lift up that person.. it could mean, when there is two people and one is discouraged.. the other friend is there to speak strength and encouragement..

It can mean a multitude of things.

But what I wanted to share with you is that anything you want to do in the world, you cannot, I repeat.. CANNOT do it alone. Yes we want to be independent, and yes we want to make a name for ourselves.. but how are we going to do that? We need someone to help us get there.

You can be full of pride and say, 'No.. I can reach it there by myself' Well honey, you're just setting yourself up for a really big fall.. and when you fall, who is going to pick you up?

You think all the people that have made it did it on their own?

I don't think so.

They had people who helped them along the way.. some came and went, and some stayed, nonetheless people came to do their part to help!

Don't feel like you can do it all on your own-- because you can't. You need that support of another person, and vice versa.

We will all get there, with the help of another person.

Yes, we will!

God bless x

All you can do is laugh

I read in the Metro today about how some quack psychologist, (he's not a quack, it's my own opinion from this theory he derived..) has now come up with this theory about how black girls are unattractive due to high levels of testosterone.

Now.

Firstly, the guy has no evidence to why that is.
Secondly, unattractive is an opinion, not a scientific hypothesis.
Thirdly... I just take it as racism. I know it exists, I'm not phased by that at all.. but to come out like that.. that's messed up.

How can you just come and say, black girls are unattractive?

The world is funny. Don't you know beauty comes from within? He's deriving from the physical.

The things in the paper make me laugh.

I'll blog again in a bit...

God bless x

This world that we live in...

This morning as I was readily getting ready for work, I heard on the radio that they were ready to halve the time rapists spend in jail if they admit that they committed the crime.

Something along those lines.

I DON'T THINK SO!

Whether they admit to it or not, they should do the full sentence for the sole fact they are subject to committing the same crime. So you're telling me when they go and rape a 14 year old, go to jail, and they admit to it instead of denying.. within the same year they'll be out again?

No. No. No. No.

I'm sorry, there's already so much paedophilia going on in the world... why do that?

And that pushes me to my next point.
God is the creator of all, right?

Well... how would we be able to differentiate good from bad unless it was put there. So when 'bad' things happen, we know they are bad. If we only saw good all the time, we wouldn't know what bad is.
Point being that life is a learning process as well as growth.
Everything in life we learn, we take on board and we use it to our strength.

So... in any bad situation, be thankful because at the end of it you've acquired strength and knowledge.

You see how God works? It's mysterious.

That's how he is.

Thoughts are quite cluttered.. I'm sleep deprived.

Night, night

God bless x

Life: Predestined?

Morpheus: Do you believe in fate, Neo?
Neo: No.
Morpheus: Why not?
Neo: Because I don't like the idea that I'm not in control of my life.

The matrix is one of my favourite movies. You know why? The way it's so ambiguous and the angle that you can relate it to isn't just one way.

I love that.

You know why I used this quote? Because of what Neo said. He said he doesn't like the idea that he's not in control of his own life.

Are you in control of your own life?

Yes, we are alive and we're living life each day, but are we actually in control? Do we know what will come out of living life? Do we even know what's going to happen tomorrow?
But truthfully, and I really believe that there is someone out there watching over us.. and guiding us.

I don't care how independent you are, and how much you've planned... sometimes things don't go according to plan, despite being 'independent' we all need help in some point in our lives.. we can't do everything alone, you know?

But don't you think life is more than this? That there is something you've been created to do.. yes you have your own desires and such.. but in a way your life has been written shall I say, for you?
But it's been written according to your strength, meaning what you've been destined to do.. you CAN do because it's been created for you.

I hope I haven't lost you.

My point: Life isn't just how you see it. It's for a purpose because you have something to fulfill. Whether you know or not, it's there and you need to complete it.

Just more thoughts...

God bless x

Release

You can't keep things inside for too long..

It needs to come out so your spirit is unhindered..

You know when you feel like there's a load on your back.. or your heart is heavy? or even your chest feels like there is a load on it? I dunno if anyone has experienced these things.. but you're just lodging up your spirit with unnecessary worries and anchors that prevent you from moving up..

Just open your mouth.. and speak to God.. he knows what's best.

Yes. He does.

Last blog of the night..

God bless x

There's no need...

I've been saying this time and time and again, and I won't stop until it's imprinted in someone's mind:

You do not need to tell everyone about your plans and dreams.

You know why? Because believe it or not, there are people out there who are seeking for your downfall. Oh yes.
I don't know why, but there's people out there, where they hear something good is happening to someone, they want to destroy it.

You can speak to people, but just be careful about what you say. Yes, there are people out there who are genuinely happy for you, but you don't know what they are planning in their minds.

I'm just saying the real stuff; because I had it in my mind that everyone likes me.. but I quickly found out that is a lie! Everyone will not like you, for what reason, I do not know.

But all I'm saying is, people can take it how it is, I call it being selective. You have the choice to say what you want, you don't have to expose your whole life to someone because then they have something to grasp onto.

Spiritually speaking, if someone has something to use against you, they can, and they can grasp onto your progress, onto anything and you'll notice that your life isn't going the way it should.

Scripture says: James 1:19 'My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry'
Meaning... be a good listener, and THINK before you speak.

It's a skill that is vital.. and when you grasp it, you can never go wrong.

#wisdom

God bless x

Just a realisation..

Last thought/blog of the night:
If you meet someone who has a similar passion or desire as you; don't feel the need to compete..

Because you have something IN you that is completely different from them. Everyone was created differently..

There might be a particular talent or skill that is in you that that other person will not have.
There's so many writers and actors and social workers and teachers and the list can go on and on, but you see each and every one of them is not the same, and even if they appear to be, they are different in the way they execute whatever they are doing.

None of us are the same, we are all different.

Embrace what you have and run with it.. you don't know where it can take you...

#thought

God bless x

Patience

It's a good virtue to harbour..

Was taught about patience in depth today at church.. and it was mind blowing. Patience is always needed because when you rush you miss the mark..

Take a look at it like this: When you're in a race, it's not how fast you can run, because you will tire quickly... but instead you're running at a steady pace, not paying attention to what's going on around you, but focusing on making the finish line.. which is your destination.

You have to be patient.. the finish line has not yet approached, so keep on running that race...

When you're patient.. you don't need to be anxious.
When you're patient you'll get what you rightfully deserve rather than some rubbish that you weren't even meant to have..

There are some things that you are expecting, but they won't fall in your lap just like that.. you have to be patient and wait for it to come at the right time..

That's how God works.

Being patient is difficult when you're really expecting something from God, or from anyone.. but just WAIT, it will come at the right time...

Have a good night.

God bless x

Easy like Sunday morning...

Just woken up my dear readers...

Couldn't help but come on my blog.

How I woke up was beautiful.. I just woke up... and light was just shining through my window. It was so comforting. I don't know how to describe it.

But I needed that sleep.. despite going to sleep around 12:30 am *bbm straight face* I know... upon all I did the day before, the least I could do for myself was go to sleep early!
I'm always up at 11, 12... I can't go to sleep at 9 anymore.. that's way too early for me!
But anyway! I feel the aches and pains of what I did the day before, but all glory goes to my father because I'm alive to see this day!

It's also an encouragement because that means he still has something to do with me, and with YOU reading this.

Just believe.

Have a wonderful day!

God bless x

Dear God....

Literally, my last post of the night. [Honestly.]

God...

Within me, I have a sense of urgency, of what.. I do not know. I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow because I'm not you. But I feel.. like something good is going to happen... but then my mind decides to try and uproot that thought and plant something stupidly negative..

Like for about a week, nearing to two, I was seriously at peace within myself. Despite everything not being the way it should, [and you know why of course] I was just content. But then something happened... and I felt all uneasy within my spirit again.

Why does that happen... and I want that peace again. I HAVE that peace again. I believe in you... because really, I don't have anyone else, if I look left, or right no one is there. So the only way is up.

To you.

I just wanted to say thank you... I never feel like that is enough, but I don't know what else to say.. it's like anything else is minuscule to what you do for me!

Thank you.

So much.

I love you.

Diana x

So what's the dealio?

Life is a funny little thing isn't it?

There is more to life than what meets the eye, and the part of life that isn't seen, do you want to see it?

Or do you want to stay ignorant and just go about life like a zombie-- waking up and doing the same routine?

Have you actually sat down and thought, 'Is there more to life than this?'
There are so many things happening that you are not aware of.

Take it like this, you know when you--lets say, get a new car, or get a new bag... and all of a sudden you start seeing that car or that bag or piece of clothing everywhere.. it was always there, but you just weren't AWARE that it was there.

Just like this life.. there are things that are there, but until we will become aware of what's going on around us, we won't see it.

Life is a funny little thing, I tells ya. But it all depends on what you want to know and see.

#choice.

Until next time...

God bless x

Wisdom

If Jada Pinkett didn't marry him, and I got to meet him.. I would have grabbed him. #honest

His wisdom is something else, and I just love his outlook on life.

Have a listen..

Be encouraged!

Yeah... so I can't help but to write another one.

So... you're in your house, you're in your car, you're on the bus.. thinking..
What are you thinking?

Why am I even here?
I'm useless...
What am I meant to be doing in my life?
No one needs me.. no one loves me..

Hold up one coller pickin' minute!

Firstly, why are you allowing negative thoughts to cloud your mind?

Why are you here?

You have been chosen by God to fulfil a purpose he has destined for YOU. He needs YOU in order for a piece of his plan to be complete.

You are NOT useless.. you are useful, you know why? Because God has put something in you that no one else has because he made you that way.. there is a skill, a talent you have that you need to embrace and use for good.


What you're meant to be doing.. everyone has a desire and aspiration right? Whatever yours is, take a look and see if it doesn't only benefit you, but it will benefit and effect a multitude of people.. you are here because you're meant to make a change for the greater good!

Everyone needs you and GOD loves you.
I know you probably hear it all the time but if you take a minute and sit down... everyday you wake up intact. Everyday you go out into the world and you are sustained... anything could happen to you. You hear stories on the news about people being kidnapped and abducted and all sorts of horror stories... but you manage to go and come back and nothing ever happens to you. Somebody somewhere is watching out for you.
Everyone does need you.. if it's not the people you know, it's the people you don't know. Oh yes, best believe honey! Mhmm! Get to know..

Just know.. you weren't made in vain and that there is something that God needs you for.
Let him in and see. It'll be a good one. Your life will never be the same. My life surely isn't!

#life

God bless x

Visualized Reality: The meaning behind the name

Ok. So I've decided to write just one more!

I'd like to break down the meaning of my blog name.. It came to me in seconds, but it basically means this:

Reality is what we see around us right? [That's what we want to believe..] But someone must have visualized what the world would be like in order to create it, so again, this blog is about everything in I see in this 'visualized reality' also known as the world.

#deep

Yeah, just felt like elaborating.
Hope you're enjoying the nice weather!

God bless x

So, I'm just full of thoughts

I think this will be the last one for the day!

Every time I commute to work and back, I observe people. Instinctively I judge people... because I'm a human.
Even though who am I even to judge?

But, then it came to me, if I'm observing these people and judging them inwardly like this, aren't they most probably doing the same to me?

And when I heard a message that said 'God is the only judge' I mean, when I see people smoking, and wearing weird clothing, I ask myself, Why would they do that? And you know how you see people smoking, and it doesn't even look like that cigarette should be prodded in their two fingers of theirs?
But one day I actually rebuked my own self, because I shouldn't be doing that!

You just have to leave people to do what they have to do. All you can do is speak words, and possibly one day if they have taken the word, it will manifest in their lives positively.

But when you're in a flesh container, you're subjected to doing things to the flesh. It's not an excuse, but it's reality.

But yeah, maybe people are doing the same to me, but I know that it's wrong to do that, and I just decided to write this down because I've found myself doing it and really I should be looking at myself and not other people. When you don't want to outline your mistakes or wrongdoings you point the finger on other people when you should really be taking it upon yourself...

When you set yourself straight, you don't have a problem!

So please... all of those people that I judged... I'm sorry, and God, forgive me!

You know the power we have is to forgive... if someone has done something to you.. forgive them.. because holding onto grudges delays your progression...

#thoughts

Until next time..

God bless x

I got my mind made up!

I'm gonna lift up anyone that I get connected to!

I'm sorry, but I do not understand, sorry to say, the black community and why the mentality is so messed up!

#honestly

How come when we see our own people, we're ashamed to even be in the same room as them? How come when someone is rising up, they want to pull them down?

I don't understand, we are not unified.. and we are not together, so how else are we gonna all make it?

Why?

Our mindset just needs to change... because we are so talented and so creative, so why are we destroying ourselves?

And don't you think when you make a decision to just encourage somebody, uplift somebody that we won't all be uplifted?

I always say whoever has the energy to plan, and gossip to destroy someone does not have anything to do, and that is just pointless.

We were created to make a change.. not to destroy.

#thought

God bless x

The belief of Change

This is one of the reasons why I decided to change my blog:

The blog rolled back to 2008, and back then I was NOT saved... I got saved in 2009.. and the blog had me saying some language that I can't even handle if I hear someone else saying it, let alone myself.

It's because I've been renewed.

It's not like I just woke up one day and said, 'I'm going to stop doing this, doing that' It's the holy spirit that does the work. The only thing that is on my part is the decision to want to change.

But it's not a good look to have cussing on there and all sorts when that's not a part of me anymore.

And plus, besides my idle thoughts.. I want to use this blog as an encouragement, and to share thoughts on particular subjects I've come across.. seen.. discussed.. whatever.

Change is always good.. especially when it benefits people around you too. Because when you're associated with people, you may not realise it, but some people look up to you and are influenced BY you, so when they see that you've changed, it will encourage them to make a few changes... it's all part of lifting people up.

#change

God bless x

Moving on, and moving up

Firstly.. this new blog had a mishap.. I actually created it yesterday and something happened to blogger and it went down.. it's back up now and my old blog that I do not want to see had magically shown up again?!

So I created this blog again, so hah!

Anyway *ahem*

Welcome. Welcome to MY world.. the place where I can get away..

I had a thought yesterday on my way to work:

Our bodies are flesh, right? But inside of us, harbours a spirit. That's the spirit of God. God has placed his spirit into us, but in Galatians 5:17 it says 'For the flesh lusts against the spirit and the spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary to one another, so that you do not do the things you wish'
So God has purposely put HIS spirit into a container that is against the wants of what our spirit wants? So that we don't do what we actually want to do? [And why I say 'container' has no relevance to food, but to the fact that when you put something in a container, it's to protect, to preserve it right? So God has put his spirit in a container, known as the flesh to preserve it..] Because God obviously can't just walk amongst the earth.. he's a spirit, so how else is he going to be on earth again unless he's in all of us?

Wow.

So for example, when [your flesh] desires to do something against your spirit (even though it's God spirit, he has placed it in US), so lets say you just feel to go out clubbing, but then something within you actually stops you.. that something is your spirit because it doesn't want you to do that.

But then wouldn't it depend on how strong you are in the spirit to overcome the temptation of flesh? Because they are against each other, they are forever conflicting right? Because I've even had times where I've given into the lusts of the flesh-- and even so, it was in the plan of God.
And that's another thing, everything that happens, even the 'bad' things, it's all part of God's plan.. it may not seem like it at the time, but when you get past it and see it from a different perspective.. you then go 'Oh...'
Haven't you had a time where you've really wanted to do something so bad, something 'just once' but then you don't end up doing it?

The bible is a deep book.
This was just a thought I had on my way to work; my mind tends to race at an uncountable speed..

#thoughts

God bless x